Reflecting on this Past Year

One year ago today, I delivered our little Brendan David at 18.5 weeks, who was already with Jesus.  What a year it has been.  I wish I could say I have been fine, and pulled through beautifully, but the truth is, losing this baby has been the most difficult grief out of our three boys that have been born stillborn between 18-21 weeks.   This year was hard.  Very hard. But even in the hard, God has been so faithful.  He is {Read More}

I Awake and I am Still With You (Part 3 of the stillbirth story of Brendan)

{If you have just stumbled upon this post, here is Part 1 & Part 2 of this story}   {Part 3} Walking into labor and delivery to be induced to deliver your precious baby that is no longer alive is a horrible feeling.  I don’t really know how exactly to explain it.  This being our third time walking into labor and delivery like this, it certainly wasn’t any easier than the first two times.  This is the place you are {Read More}

You Keep him in Perfect Peace…

…whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You.  Isaiah 26:3 To read Part One of this story, click here. {Part 2} After our doctor confirmed to us that our baby had passed away, I tried, through tears, to explain a little bit about the bad feeling I had been having.  I just told them a few quick pieces of the story, but I’ll share the whole thing here. I think the very first thought I had about losing {Read More}

The Lord Gave us 18.5 Weeks with our Precious Brendan

Just a month ago, I posted about our exciting news.  Finally announcing (here on the blog) our newest pregnancy, at 15 weeks along.  I announced the pregnancy long before that to family and friends.  For whatever reason, it just took me a while to finally blog about it. 🙂 It is honestly a surreal feeling to be, once again, posting about the death of another one of our precious little ones.  I think I still feel a little shocked.  It is hard to {Read More}

Hope for the Lonely

He sits in the cold, sterile hospital room, holding her hand, waiting for those inevitable words from the doctor. “I am sorry sir…she’s gone.” His heart aches with unimaginable pain as he watches the third person he has loved so deeply in his 80 years of life, pass away from this monster disease. Cancer. First, the wife of his youth, and mother of his 2 children. Next his oldest child, his best friend, his son. And now his dearly loved {Read More}

Tornado Devastation

As I am sure you all know by now, much of the southeast was ravaged by tornadoes yesterday.  Included in the destructive path of one of these large tornadoes, was one of my favorite bloggers – Kelly, from Generation Cedar.  She is a fellow Christian, homeschooling mom.  She just had her 9th baby a couple of weeks ago, and now, their house has been completely destroyed by the tornado.  Click here to read more about the details. {Photo Credit: Generation {Read More}

Missing You Corbin Elijah, on Your 2nd Birthday!

  Remembering our little Corbin Elijah today, on his second still-birthday.  We still miss him so, and wish he could have been part of our family here on earth.  I know he is having a WAY better time in heaven than he would have ever had here with us….but still, we miss him! This picture was from, I believe, about his 15 week sonogram.  He was adorable, kicking around, having a good ol’ time in the womb!  Only 4 or {Read More}

Of Baby Loss and Infertility

Today, February 3, 2011, my little Noah Matthew would be 3 years old, had he made it to his due date.  It got me thinking about how it has been a really long time since I have talked about our baby boys on the blog.  It also got me thinking about how I have not really shared anything about our struggle with infertility for the past almost 2 years.  I don’t talk about it, so I imagine friends either (a.)think {Read More}

How Firm a Foundation

During our school time morning devotions, one of the things the kids and I have been doing is using Hymns For a Kids Heart, by Bobbie Wolgemuth and Joni Eareckson Tada.  This morning we began learning the hymn How Firm a Foundation. For each new hymn, the book tells a little background history on the hymn, and then includes a little story from Joni about someway that hymn has influenced or spoken to her life.  I enjoyed her story this {Read More}

3 Years Ago Today…..

Our little Noah Matthew was still-born at 21 weeks, 5 days. Though our sadness significantly fades as the months and years pass, we will never forget him.  He will always hold a special place in our hearts. Today we remember, and celebrate his life and memory, though short to us, we know he lives on in eternity…where one day we will join him and meet him alive for the first time!

Noah’s 2-year Birth/Death Day

It is hard to believe tomorrow will be 2 years that have passed since I gave birth to our little Noah Matthew, who was no longer alive, at 21.5 weeks along in my pregnancy.  While the raw pain and hurt have drastically lessened over the past two years, they have also been intensified with the death of our little Corbin Elijah this year. I now live with the twinge of pain in my heart of losing 2 of my babies {Read More}

Corbin’s Due Date

I am thinking a lot of our baby today.   Our little Corbin Elijah who we lost just 4 1/2 months ago.  Today was the day he was due to be born.  It still feels so strange going through this again…and it’s much harder, definitely not easier.  I don’t really have a lot to say.  I don’t feel like saying much.  But I am thinking of him today, missing him, wishing he had made it to his due date, longing to {Read More}


   I know my blog has been pretty quiet lately.  We are just enjoying the  summer!  I plan on our summer break being pretty short this year, so I am trying to fit a lot of fun into a short amount of time.  Our school year ended June 12th, and I plan to start our new school year back up on August 3rd.  I want to start a month earlier than usual so that hopefully I can plan some extra breaks throughout {Read More}

So Much On My Mind

   It is hard to even know what to write or where to begin!  Since our baby was born a little over 2 months ago, I have had several doctor appointments and lots and lots of waiting to find out results!    I will try to sum it all up and make it as short as possible!  I have had the same dr.  for all 5 of my pregnancies, since 2001.  But it seemed she was pretty unwilling, or I guess {Read More}

The Writer of “It is Well With My Soul”

Thanks Kathy for sharing this link with me!! Watch this video explaining the life experiences of the writer of “It is Well”  It is so sad to hear of what he went through, yet so amazing how God so graciously brought him through it all, and brought this famous hymn out of it!