Memorial for Corbin Elijah

   We had our memorial service for Corbin Elijah yesterday evening.  It was a very nice service with just the four of us at home.  We began by praying, and listening to a couple of songs.  We listened to “Glory Baby”, by Watermark, and “With Hope”, by Steven Curtis Chapman.  Then Jared read from the Bible and talked to us about the story of Job.  He talked about how that relates to us, and how we should respond in the {Read More}

Peace in Suffering

   I have had great intentions of blogging all week…but as you can see, that never happened!!    Monday night at midnight (so technically Tuesday morning) I headed to my sister’s house for her homebirth!  A week overdue, she was finally in labor!  After 24 long hours of hanging out with her while she labored, her third child, a baby girl was born –  all 10lbs, 6 oz of her!!    So, this week started out with all of the {Read More}

There Will Be a Day

Love this song!  (PS.  Let me know if you are unable to view this…I am having some computer issues!)

Losing Our Baby – Part Two

     So, back at home we sat down with the kids to tell them the news.  We had anticipated it would be very difficult for both of them to take.  We knew for Trevor it was going to hit him hard because he remembers losing Noah and still misses him.  Zoe was 2 – almost 3 when Noah died and it didn’t make as big of an impact on her at that age.  I am not sure she fully remembers.  {Read More}

I Can’t Believe I Am Writing This Again…

     I don’t even want to write this post, but I have to.  Let me first say that I am simply going to give the details of what happened for now, and I will write more in the days/weeks ahead.      It all began last weekend when I started having this overwhelming feeling something was wrong with the baby.  I was concerned because I hadn’t yet felt the baby move, and I was 19 weeks along.  I figured that with my 4th baby, {Read More}

One Year Anniversary of our Baby Noah’s Birth/Death

**Updated to add:  I found my camera cord, and have added the photos to the end of the post now!**    I can not believe it has already been a year since I gave birth to our sweet little baby Noah, who was no longer alive.  It will actually be one year this Sunday, Sept 21st.       Here are the links to the posts I wrote about a year ago when we were going through this very sad time… Post #1 – the {Read More}

Chapmans on Larry King

  Have you had a chance to watch the Chapmans interview on Larry King Live yet?  If you haven’t – you must!!  But before you start, grab a box of tissues.  Go ahead, I’ll wait…… ……did you get them?  Ok, good!  (If you didn’t you will soon regret it !)  Now, here are all pieces of the interview in order…and then be sure to watch Larry Kings response to it all at the end! Larry King’s response After the Show We {Read More}

The Chapman Family’s Hope on Good Morning America

   If you are like me and you missed the incredible interview with the Steven Curtis Chapman family on Good Morning America yesterday, be sure to go check it out here!

Goodbye to the Beloved Lazyboy…

   Well, the time has finally come.  We held on as long as we could.  We squeezed as much life as possible out of our beloved recliner.  But sadly, her life is over.    We have had this recliner since we were married (8 years ago).  For a very short period of time before we had her, she was my dad’s.     When I was 18 and in college, my dad was diagnosed with Brain Cancer.  After a few short months, he passed away.  {Read More}

Pray for the Chapman Family

   Oh, my heart is so broken for the Steven Curtis Chapman family.  Their youngest daughter, 5-year old Maria, died tragically    After I found out, I told my children, because they love the Cinderella song, and have listened to him talk about why he wrote it on You Tube.  I told them we should pray for them, so Zoe went first, and when it was my turn, I could hardly hold myself together as I prayed through tears and {Read More}

No Love Without Grief

“Tell us, fool, who knows more of love–the one who has joys from it or the one who has trials and griefs? He answered: There cannot be any knowledge of love without both of them.(Ramon Lull, The Book of the Lover and the Beloved) When I imagine that I want to learn to love God–and to love my husband and others whom God has given me to love–let me test the desire of my willingness to accept trial and grief. {Read More}

My original due date is quickly approaching…

…and things are stirring up emotionally inside of me all over again! I haven’t posted about losing our baby, Noah Matthew, since October.   And I have been fine for the most part.  Celebrating Trevor & Zoe’s birthdays, Thanskgiving, Christmas, and New Years have all kept me busy and kept my mind off of things.  But now that my original due date is less than a month away, things are getting harder again.  He was due on Feb. 3rd, and we lost him on Sept. {Read More}

Wave of Light – October 15th, 2007

       Each year on October 15th, a special day of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance is celebrated.  That is this coming Monday!!!  I want to help spread the word for this special day of remembrance…feel free to spread the word too!  Thanks Tamara for the info. 🙂  Go to for more details! There webiste states: “Remembering Our Babies was created to provide support, education and awareness for those who are suffering or may know someone who has suffered a {Read More}

A Little Closure, and Continued Healing In Progress!

   This past Sunday, September 30, we had the memorial service for little Noah Matthew.  It was amazing!  I am so glad we decided to have one, and that our pastor was so gracious to speak at it and plan it for us.  Looking back on it, I wish we had video taped it, because what our pastor said was just amazing.  I didn’t know what he planned on saying, but I knew whatever he said would be so good, {Read More}

God is SO GOOD!

   I believe I mentioned in my last post that the nurse was unable to tell if our baby was a boy or girl.  This has been really hard for me to deal with.  I wanted to know so badly so I could name our baby.  This is so important to me because the baby is so real to me…my child, just the same as my other children, only this one died in my womb.  Not being able to give the baby {Read More}