Corbin’s Due Date

I am thinking a lot of our baby today.   Our little Corbin Elijah who we lost just 4 1/2 months ago.  Today was the day he was due to be born.  It still feels so strange going through this again…and it’s much harder, definitely not easier.  I don’t really have a lot to say.  I don’t feel like saying much.  But I am thinking of him today, missing him, wishing he had made it to his due date, longing to be in the hospital delivering him,  instead of sitting here mourning his death, and our great loss.

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Life is kind of on hold today.  We are pausing to remember our son and brother.  I purposefully planned to start school tomorrow rather than today, because I knew it just wouldn’t be possible today.  We will work on that scrapbook I never got around to, listen to some of our favorite songs, be thankful for where we know our child is (heaven), and continue to trust and praise God knowing His ways are perfect, and we can fully trust Him in whatever He has ordained for our lives.

Whatever my God ordains is right
In His love I am abiding
I will be still in all He does
And follow where He is guiding
He is my God, though dark my road
He holds me that I shall not fall
And so to Him I leave it all

Whatever my God ordains is right
He never will deceive me
He leads me by the proper path
I know He will not leave me
I take content, what He has sent
His hand can turn my griefs away
And patiently I wait His day

Whatever my God ordains is right
Here shall my stand be taken
Though sorrow, or need, or death be mine
Yet I am not forsaken
My Father’s care circles me there
He holds me that I shall not fall
And so to Him I leave it all

Whatever my God ordains is right
Though now this cup in drinking
Bitter it seems to my faint heart
I take it all unshrinking
My God is true, each morn anew
Sweet comfort yet shall fill my heart
And pain and sorrow shall depart

© 2007 Sovereign Grace Praise (BMI)

Original words by Samuel Rodigast, 1676
Translated by Catherine Winkworth, 1863
Music and alternate words by Mark Altrogge


Comments

  1. May he lift you up today as you solely depend on Him to take away the loss that you feel, and know that he is our God who cares for you every moment of every day, and about every thought of your precious baby. May He give you the strength to endure and continue to look to Him to slowly allow the pain of having to live without caring for this little life, subside. I pray that you rest in His wonderful love for you today, tomorrow and always.

    Love you,
    Klare

  2. I think of you so often. I know firsthand how hard these days are……..we will pray for you today! Please know that I am here if you ever want to talk. Praising God that your child is in heaven and that you will see him again.

    Brandy

  3. Katie~
    I can’t imagine, I won’t pretend I know how you feel. I only hope you take comfort in the prayers I send up for you, and the fact that your children are in the arms of your Heavenly Father. One day, you’ll get to hold them and kiss them and look them in the eyes and say you love them. To them, time isn’t a factor….it’s only you that waits.

  4. My thoughts and prayers are with you on this day. I am glad to know that one day we will meet Corbin. Until then, may God be glorified though your struggles and those of your family. – Amy

  5. Katie and family,
    As I watched your sweet family arrive early to church yesterday, I thought of your many losses. (I didn’t realize this was the due date, but God did.) I said a prayer for you as I do often when you are brought to mind. I pray for God’s comfort on you today and healing for your hearts.

  6. Oh, I’m so sorry! This must be so hard! Not once, but twice! Hugs.

  7. Love you. Miss you. HUGS today. And tomorrow. And the next day. {{{HUGS}}}

  8. Katie, thinking of you today and in the days to come.

  9. Thanks everyone for all of your sweet comments and prayers!!

    -Katie

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