It has now been 2 1/2 weeks, since I went to the ER and ended up in emergency surgery, and I guess I am just now feeling coherant enough to write about it!!
I believe I mentioned this past spring/summer, while being shuffled from doctor to doctor, that we found I had 2 tumors…one on each ovary. After several doctors (obgyns, an oncologist, & a high risk obgyn) it was concluded that most likely my tumors were benign. They believed performing surgery to remove the tumors would be very risky and there was a high probability that I would loose my ovaries. They thought my best chance at having another baby would be to leave the tumors there for now. However, the risk of leaving them there was that they could continue to grow, and eventually begin to twist my ovary causing extreeme pain, and needing emergency surgery.
Well, can you guess where this story is going? The Saturday before Thanksgiving I began having extreme pain in my lower left abdomen. As the pain continued to escalate, I had a pretty good idea it was probably my tumor twisting. So, off we went to the ER! The pain would come and go at first, but while having the ultrasound performed to find out if it was in fact twisting, the pain escalated to the worst pain I have ever experienced in my entire life!! 10 times worse than childbirth! Seriously. Probably because the pain was relentless, and kept getting worse, not better. In childbirth you at least have a break between contractions. Not so with this. The pain was so intense I began to black out while the lady was doing the sono, and then I threw up all over her floor! And I do not throw up easily. I seriously thought I was going to die!
Finally after a long, horrendous ultrasound, she took me back to the ER room, and they gave me some meds for the pain, and I was so much better, for an hour at least! An on-call obgyn came in and let me know that the sono showed there was no blood flow to my left ovary, confirming that it was in fact twisting.
Thankfully the Lord was so gracious to give me an awesome on-call obgyn that night!! I was going to be taken back for emergency surgery. He talked with me, and knowing I desired to have more children, promised to do everything he could to save my ovaries in the surgery. I was in so much pain it was hard for me to care much about anything other than getting those things out of my body ASAP! But now that it is all over, I am so thankful to God for all that He did for me! The dr was able to remove both tumors completely, and was able to preserve most of both ovaries, so that I should be able to have children again. I am just so thankful!
My tumors were sent off to pathology, and I should find out tomorrow the results from that. I am not too worried though, because I think they would have called me by now if they had found anything. But still, I will be glad to hear him tell me for sure that they are benign.
And there you have it! My totally crazy tumor story! One of my good friends pointed out to me, that if the Lord does give us another child, what a story he/she will have. After this long grievous journey we have been on…to have another child would truly be a miracle! She is so right!
I was released from the hospital 2 weeks ago today. I have been on bedrest for the past 2 weeks, and finally drove today for the first time. My recovery was so slow and painful…something I totally didn’t expect. But I am feeling much better now, and so thankful I can get out and about again. I had such a hard time after Thanksgiving when it was time to decorate for Christmas, and I had to sit on the sidelines, not able to help out much. But I am able to do so much more now. And I have really enjoyed sitting and reading Christmas books to the kids, and reading from “Jotham’s Journey” to them for Advent, and adding to our Jesse Tree. It still has been a great Advent season, even through my bedrest. Now I just have to get to work, finishing up Christmas shopping and wrapping presents!