A Little Closure, and Continued Healing In Progress!

   This past Sunday, September 30, we had the memorial service for little Noah Matthew.  It was amazing!  I am so glad we decided to have one, and that our pastor was so gracious to speak at it and plan it for us.  Looking back on it, I wish we had video taped it, because what our pastor said was just amazing.  I didn’t know what he planned on saying, but I knew whatever he said would be so good, and it was even better than I could have imagined.  Prior to having the service, I really didn’t know what I thought about the purpose of Noah’s life…I didn’t know how God could use or had used his brief life.  However, I did know that our God is Sovereign, and Good, and that I can fully trust Him in whatever He chooses for my life and the lives of my family members.  I came away from the service certain of the purposes (at least some of them) of Noah’s short life.  Our pastor did an amazing job of verifying the life of our little baby through God’s word, explaining how he was created in the image of God and that he was created to glorify God.    He talked about how Noah was a test of our faith.  He also pointed out how breif all of our lives are by comparing baby Noah’s life to someone living 800 years in the Bible.  Holding each of them up in light of eternity, they both are only a breath, a vapor. 

“Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.”  James 4:14

    He also explained how Noah’s life was a gift to us and to the nations.  Because his life will always be a part of our family, and in our hearts…we will be able to share his life, and what God has done for us because of Noah, with whomever the Lord brings our way to share this with…to possibly help them through a  similar situation.  I could go on and on, trying to recall to you everything that was said, but I know I am completely butchering it!   He went into great detail and scripture study on everything he talked about.  All that was said I will cherish in my heart forever!

   There were about 55 wonderful friends and family members who attended the service.  Several people drove an hour or more to come.  Jared’s mom and sister even drove 4 hours just to come to the service.   Everyone has been so amazingly supportive, and we are so thanful for all of the people who came, who have been praying, and sending meals, cards, and emails.  We have truly felt the love of Christ through His people. 

“I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.” Ephesians 3:16-19

   I have truly felt the wide, long, high, and deep love of Christ through all of this!!!  His love completely amazes me!  

   So now, after being so encouraged and loved through all of this, it feels like we have a little closure.  However, we will never forget our little Noah, and I know there are still days of grief and sadness to come.  He will always be in our hearts.  He will always be acknowledged as a part of our family.  And I pray that the Lord would use his brief life to impact the lives of others.  He has certainly impacted my life in a major way already, along with Jared’s, Trevor’s, and Zoe’s lives.  Another thing our pastor said at the service, was that when people ask us in the future how many children we have we can tell them, “well, we have Trevor, Zoe, and then we have Noah, who has gone to be with the Lord.”  He will always be a part of our lives, and he will certainly always be remembered as a child in our family.   


Boasting In My Weakness

1 Corinthians 12:9-10


  1. It sounds so beautiful. I’m so glad to hear you are getting peace–that could really only come from God–in this hard time. I’m sure the whole service made Noah a part of the extended family as well, what a blessing!!

    Just so you know, I still whisper a prayer for you from time to time……

  2. I just love to hear how God’s peace beyond understanding is helping people all over. God be with you during this difficult time. In Christ, Suzy

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  4. Thank you for sharing about your service. I wish I could say that our Pastor was as caring as yours was. Our pastor did not have any words of his own to offer and only read the few words that we had asked him to. He didn’t know what to say for this particular situation….

    I am so thankful that you were surrounded by loving family and church family as well. My prayers are with you.
    Love and God Bless, Melissa D. SC

  5. It was a beautiful service. It really touched me and gave me a good reminder that I do indeed have four children. That our little Samuel was just as real as my other three are and he went on to the Father a little sooner than we wanted.

    Love ya

  6. I’m so glad to hear that your heart is beginning to have some peace and closure. I am sure it has been and will be a long process of many emotions. I bet, at times, that going through this trial has been extremely difficult to find meaning and purpose in God’s hand but I want you to know that your continued faith and praise of our Lord through this entire process has ministered to me (and others undoubtedly) more than you’ll ever know. Just know that your faith has forever impacted my own life. Still praying for you and your family.

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