My original due date is quickly approaching…

…and things are stirring up emotionally inside of me all over again!

I haven’t posted about losing our baby, Noah Matthew, since October.   And I have been fine for the most part.  Celebrating Trevor & Zoe’s birthdays, Thanskgiving, Christmas, and New Years have all kept me busy and kept my mind off of things. 

But now that my original due date is less than a month away, things are getting harder again.  He was due on Feb. 3rd, and we lost him on Sept. 21st (at 21 weeks). 

One thing that doesn’t help much is getting newborn diaper samples in the mail, free baby magazines (that are somehow being sent right now), 3d ultrasound advertisements, baby coupons, etc…you get the picture!  I seem to get some type of baby thing every other day.  That along with some other things that I wont go into, are constant reminders lately of this great loss, and what was supposed to be a joyful anticipation – my due date!

Anyway, I really don’t know what else to say other than, this is getting hard again, and I needed to vent it!  Please be praying for me these next few weeks, if you think of it!

PS.  In case you are wondering what in the world I am talking about, you can read these posts to be caught up! 

Katie

Boasting In My Weakness

1 Corinthians 12:9-10

Comments

  1. Oh Katie! You will most definitely be in my prayers. Wishing you peace and comfort…

  2. Oh my – I am so sorry for your loss. God is good, but sometimes it’s hard to see his vision for our lives and for our future.
    My heart is saddened by what you went through. I can’t even begin to imagine the pain.
    I will be praying for you tonight, and many nights to come. (((HUGS)))

  3. Praying for you! Lots of HUGS. I wish I could stop those freebies in the mail for you. I had another friend who once went through the same thing, all the samples and magazines. It wasn’t easy. But as you know, God is good above all else and He’ll carry you through. Lots of love! Take care. Rest in Jesus.

  4. I’ll be praying for you during this sad time. I know you trust in God’s sovereign plan and know all things work together for our good…but it still can be sad and hard to deal with. I know it would be hard for me…. I pray God will comfort your heart.

  5. Katie,

    I stop by your blog now and again and catch up on your life.

    I am sorry for all you have been through.

    I just wanted to tell you that you have brought me closer to God and helped in restoring my faith. I’ve been away from God and my church for so long and the later half of 2007 has brought me back.

  6. Katie,
    I have been so blessed by seeing your strength through all of this. It is understandable that sorrow will come. I will definitely keep you in my prayers. Like Kim said, I know you are trusting in God’s Sovereignty, and what a blessing it is to know that He orchestrates every second of your life.

    Lamentations 3 Says:
    19 I remember my affliction and my wandering,
    the bitterness and the gall.
    20 I well remember them,
    and my soul is downcast within me.
    21 Yet this I call to mind
    and therefore I have hope:
    22 Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail.
    23 They are new every morning;
    great is your faithfulness.
    24 I say to myself, “The LORD is my portion;
    therefore I will wait for him.”
    25 The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him;
    26 it is good to wait quietly
    for the salvation of the LORD.

    God Bless!
    Leigh

  7. Praying for you especially during this difficult time!!! (((HUGS!!!)))

  8. God has great plans! Put your trust in that promise.

  9. Hi Katie- I found you through Kristi Thomas’ blog- we are old friends from Brent’s days at Southern Seminary. Anyway, my heart goes out to you! My husband and I had a very similar experience with our first baby (he was born at 18 weeks), Andrew Scott. I remember well the pain of the whole experience and the original due date was a day I dreaded. After several years (it has been seven years now), I still carry our baby in my heart and think about him often. His due date and his birthday never come and go without my thinking about him. God has been faithful to us- we have had four healthy children since we had Andrew- and I look forward to the day when all our children will meet each other. God bless you and your family.
    Love,
    Tami Ellison
    (please email me if you would like- ste39@juno.com)

  10. Hey sweetie,

    I am so sorry. That was one of the hardest dates for me to get through. Samuel was due August 29th. The first year was so hard. Let yourself grieve. If you need anything, please call me. Also, if you want to hang out that day, I am available,

    love Misty

  11. We will keep you all in our prayers as I am sure this is a very difficult time for you. May God continue to comfort all of you during this time.

  12. I’m still thinking and praying for you. I know that each of these dates are so painful and if you need someone to listen, please feel free to email me.

    Hugs, Tamara

  13. Katie~
    Although I do not know you, please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers during this difficult time.

    My co-worker had the same thing happen to her last September (she is an unbeliever)…..and her baby was due 2/10.

    As I pray for her, I too shall be lifting you up in prayer!!

    Allow God to continue to wrap you in his loving arms!!

  14. Thank you for sharing this. I will be praying for you. You were so brave to write about it all. I’ve never read about an experience like yours where God received so much glory.

    My heart aches with you.
    Love,
    Erica

  15. I just wanted to say a huge THANK YOU to all of you for your very kind comments, encouragement, and prayers!! I am thankful for you!

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