…and things are stirring up emotionally inside of me all over again!
I haven’t posted about losing our baby, Noah Matthew, since October. And I have been fine for the most part. Celebrating Trevor & Zoe’s birthdays, Thanskgiving, Christmas, and New Years have all kept me busy and kept my mind off of things.
But now that my original due date is less than a month away, things are getting harder again. He was due on Feb. 3rd, and we lost him on Sept. 21st (at 21 weeks).
One thing that doesn’t help much is getting newborn diaper samples in the mail, free baby magazines (that are somehow being sent right now), 3d ultrasound advertisements, baby coupons, etc…you get the picture! I seem to get some type of baby thing every other day. That along with some other things that I wont go into, are constant reminders lately of this great loss, and what was supposed to be a joyful anticipation – my due date!
Anyway, I really don’t know what else to say other than, this is getting hard again, and I needed to vent it! Please be praying for me these next few weeks, if you think of it!
PS. In case you are wondering what in the world I am talking about, you can read these posts to be caught up!