I have had great intentions of blogging all week…but as you can see, that never happened!!
Monday night at midnight (so technically Tuesday morning) I headed to my sister’s house for her homebirth! A week overdue, she was finally in labor! After 24 long hours of hanging out with her while she labored, her third child, a baby girl was born – all 10lbs, 6 oz of her!!
So, this week started out with all of the excitement of a birth and new baby, and hasn’t slowed down!
We are also busy planning our memorial service for baby Corbin this Saturday. We have decided to have the service at home this time with the 4 of us. Jared is planning out what he is going to say, and what passages from the Bible he will be reading. We will sing some worship songs, and also listen to some songs. We will also plant a little memorial garden for all of our babies that we have lost. Noah Matthew (9/21/07), Corbin Elijah(3/12/09), and another baby I lost in an early miscarriage before we had Trevor – Hannah (9/10/01 -yes, the day before Sept. 11th!)
Those first few days after losing Corbin were so tough. And it is still very hard! But I am thankful to say that God is upholding me and sanctifying me as I walk through this grief and suffering. As difficult as it is to lose my baby, I can honestly say that I am thankful for my suffering. I know that probably sounds strange. But I now know God and have a relationship with Him in a way I never would have if I hadn’t walked through the suffering I have walked through in my life. If this is what it takes for Him to take my focus off of myself and things of this world, and put my focus completely on Him and eternity, then so be it!
“More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope,” – Romans 5:3-4
” Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! According to his great mercy, he has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, to an inheritance that is imperishable, undefiled, and unfading, kept in heaven for you, who by God’s power are being guarded through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time.In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith—more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire—may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ.” – 1 Peter 1:6-7