Reflecting on this Past Year

One year ago today, I delivered our little Brendan David at 18.5 weeks, who was already with Jesus.  What a year it has been.  I wish I could say I have been fine, and pulled through beautifully, but the truth is, losing this baby has been the most difficult grief out of our three boys that have been born stillborn between 18-21 weeks.   This year was hard.  Very hard. But even in the hard, God has been so faithful.  He is {Read More}

I Awake and I am Still With You (Part 3 of the stillbirth story of Brendan)

{If you have just stumbled upon this post, here is Part 1 & Part 2 of this story}   {Part 3} Walking into labor and delivery to be induced to deliver your precious baby that is no longer alive is a horrible feeling.  I don’t really know how exactly to explain it.  This being our third time walking into labor and delivery like this, it certainly wasn’t any easier than the first two times.  This is the place you are {Read More}

You Keep him in Perfect Peace…

…whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You.  Isaiah 26:3 To read Part One of this story, click here. {Part 2} After our doctor confirmed to us that our baby had passed away, I tried, through tears, to explain a little bit about the bad feeling I had been having.  I just told them a few quick pieces of the story, but I’ll share the whole thing here. I think the very first thought I had about losing {Read More}

The Lord Gave us 18.5 Weeks with our Precious Brendan

Just a month ago, I posted about our exciting news.  Finally announcing (here on the blog) our newest pregnancy, at 15 weeks along.  I announced the pregnancy long before that to family and friends.  For whatever reason, it just took me a while to finally blog about it. 🙂 It is honestly a surreal feeling to be, once again, posting about the death of another one of our precious little ones.  I think I still feel a little shocked.  It is hard to {Read More}