Comment on Wordless Wednesday ~ Celebrating 9 years of Marriage! by Jena(Organizing Mommy)

Jena(Organizing Mommy) — Thu, 09 Jul 2009 06:12:05 +0000

Beautiful! Thanks for the great photos. May God give you a rich and happy marriage as you pursue His Son.

Comment on Wordless Wednesday ~ Celebrating 9 years of Marriage! by Cascia @ Healthy Moms

Cascia @ Healthy Moms — Wed, 08 Jul 2009 18:00:42 +0000

Happy Anniversary!

Comment on Wordless Wednesday ~ Celebrating 9 years of Marriage! by kirsty815

kirsty815 — Wed, 08 Jul 2009 14:46:24 +0000

I love the before and after shots beautiful! I’m a sucker for Black and White photo’s. Happy Anniversary!

Comment on Walking Through Miscarriage/Stillbirth by bimw

bimw — Tue, 07 Jul 2009 13:15:23 +0000

Wow, what an amazing, and at the same time heartbreaking, story. Thank you so much for sharing it!

Comment on Walking Through Miscarriage/Stillbirth by Kathee

Kathee — Tue, 07 Jul 2009 10:40:14 +0000

We were married in 1980 – at the age of 21 – after being friends since junior high. I had 5 miscarriages before ever being able to carry full-term. Finally had a perfect baby girl. Then we couldn’t get PG at all. After trying for five (5) years, we were able to adopt a 3 day-old boy! Got PG 2 yrs after that, but never let myself get excited – afraid to be hurt again. My ‘hormones’ never did elevate to where they should be to maintain a baby – I kept expecting to loose it! Before leaving for the hospital I showed my mom where new-born baby clothes were stored – up high – with the comment: “IF I have a healthy baby to bring home, could you get those down and wash them for me.?” We brought home a small but perfect boy. Miracle, got PG 2 yrs later – let myself enjoy every minute of that pregnancy! This time a big robust healthy boy – also my 3rd c-section. Then another miracle – I got PG again right away. We were so thrilled to think we were finally having the big family we always wanted, and my body finally figured out what to do! I’m sure I had the typical PG yuckiness – but I honestly don’t remember it. I was so very happy – loving my 9 yr old daughter, and our 3 crazy little boys ages 5, 3, and almost 1. Everything was text-book perfect with a big active baby growing. I was driving to my 6 month doctor appointment, and stopped at a stop light. Totally out of the blue – I was washed in sadness and gloom. Tears started falling and I didn’t know why. I can still remember looking at my big belly next to the steering wheel, and seeing tear drop marks on my shirt. The nurse couldn’t get a heartbeat. The doctor couldn’t either. He took me in the other room and started using an ultrasound machine. There was our perfectly formed baby boy – with no heartbeat. My sweet doctor spent a long time just looking – he said – “Kathee, I don’t know what to say. Everything looks right. In fact, I think that his heart just barely stopped beating within the last hour – everything is still working and pumping except for his heart.” He left the image on the screen, left the lights dim, and hugged me. He suggested that I come back the next morning with my husband and let him see our baby boy and then we could schedule the next step. The problem was – I have a knotted cervix – one of the reasons I have to have c-sections. Our baby was fully 25 weeks developed. If I had been 26 weeks – he would have been required by our state law to perform a c-section if I didn’t dilate enough to deliver the baby on my own. At 25 weeks we still had the option of having him remove baby with a ‘vacumn’. What a HORRIBLE decision! It hadn’t even been a year since my third c-section – but I had never ever dilated. My doctor was wonderful to us though. We wanted to try for more kids – so after much prayer – we went with the vacumn. Going to the hospital was a nightmare. One of the nurses refered to “IT” instead of the baby – and me as coming to have an abortion! How cruel. I wanted to protect my baby – to hold on to him – to perform a miracle and have his heart just start beating again. I wanted/needed to give our baby a name. My husband disagreed and thought that it would prolong our grief. He was smart enough to let me decide to name him David. Thankfully our children still refer to our baby David. Even my father-in-law called him David and told people that one of his grandsons had died. It helped me to validate the reality of his life – and I know that he will still be our son in the hear-after. The day after loosing our baby – there was a car accident right in front of my home – a little boy that looked just like my 5 yr old adopted son – was hit by a car while on his bike. I was the one to call 911 and take a blanket out for him while waiting for the paramedics. Heavenly Father softend my grief. I realized that as hard as loosing this baby was – how wanted he was – I still had the blessing of coming home to the joyful noise of my sweet family. Those first 5 miscarriages had been with a quiet empty house. I counted my blessings and tried to move on. That was 16 years ago exactly this past weekend. My original due date was hard – but I was also pregnant again by then! I ended up giving birth to two more – both girls – both high risk pregnancies. So, like Hannah in the bible who gave up her Samuel to the Lord, I also had 6 kids. My last little girl we named Hannah. David would be 16 this year. If we hadn’t agreed to the ‘vacumn’ and had a c-section instead – there would be no guarantee that I would have still been able to have two more babies – our little girls – also by c-section. I know there is a limit to what my uterus could have tolerated! A day doesn’t go by that I don’t think about David and wonder about his personality and who he would be. I’m not sure how I wandered into your blog-site, but thank you for giving me a little corner to share my story.

Comment on Summertime by Laura Wiese

Laura Wiese — Wed, 01 Jul 2009 03:53:31 +0000

Just wanted to say I am so sorry for the loss of your little one. I lost twins at 22 wks and I know how devastating it can be. I often am grateful for this experience, even though it is hard…because I know that the Lord walked this very same path long before me when He gave up His Son for my sins. Yet our hearts ache and our arms reach for our little ones! Sometimes the reunion day cannot seem to come quick enough…but we wait in His time. You have a beautiful family! May the Lord bless you richly in His love and mercy.
Love in Him,
Laura

Comment on Wordless Wednesday ~ Flowers From my Sweeties by Mindi

Mindi — Tue, 23 Jun 2009 19:45:20 +0000

that is awesome – I got flowers this week too!!